What Now?

Isn't it funny how often we find cliche sayings to be true? "Don't take things for granted", "Make the most of it", "Carpe Diem", etc.. While I see where these statements come from, I also disagree with them. I lived all of my college years trying to find a balance between being reflective, being in the moment, and doing both at the same time. Five years later on the verge of receiving my degree, I am still in a place of sadness.

I realized the importance of all of the relationships I had the past five years, and tried to express it as much as my personality allowed. This period of transition is hard, because I don't know what to expect, and I know what I already have. How can I be expected to wake up with enthusiasm every day, when there is so much uncertainty about the future? It's hard to seize the day when I need to reflect first.

Don't get me wrong, I am excited to begin what is considered the biggest part of an American's life in a career, but to be able to appreciate the things when they come, I think it is important to realize where I have came from and who the people are that helped me get there. If I am taking anything for granted, it's the role that my friends and family have played in shaping my personality and perspective. It's not the laughs, cries, arguments, or deep conversations we shared.

Miss you guys. 

I suppose the realization that I am coming to, is how important it is to balance appreciation for friends and family, and living in the moment. Without reflecting on my past and realizing how it helped bring me to this point, it is impossible for me to move on to the next stage and appreciate that just as much.

So this is to all my friends that peer pressured me into going out on Monday nights, and encouraged me with my studies the next day. This is for all of my friends that encouraged me to stay out for one drink just to "see what happens", and the ones who fed me water later that night. This is also for my friends that were there when I needed to talk about something important, and helped make me feel better. Thanks for the memories, and know that even if I'm gone, I'm always around.